I trusted Thy / before thy existed

I trusted thy
before thy existed.

For eleven years
I curled my fingers to reach his,
         I ended up touching mine.

Highlighted him
    overcrowding reach,
a red tunnel
filled with doubting debris.

Moved forward
without roads or signs.

And once I met him
every aching grid of mine,

collected any
  sudden rush of sadness
as my own bones.